Tuesday, November 10, 2009

plenty

Feeling thankful today.
Feeling thankful of having plenty.
Actually overflowing.
Most of our closets are overflowing with clothes, food, crayons, etc.
We are not rich in the US but we live like Kings and Queens compared to most the world.

Wondering if we have enough for another child.
Dreaming of Naomi.
Still doesn't make "sense".
We have been blessed with so much...so much to give.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Finally did it!

I am not sure really what took me so long. ...
or really why I did it tonight but.....


I am now officially on facebook

Anyone want to be my friend? (I feel like I am in elementary school again)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Another Highlight of the Year -with a Side of Irony (by Andrew)


(Sorry to hijack your blog again Amber.) I have to say I've always looked at blogging, face-tweeting and the likes with cynicism. "Why do people think anyone would care what kind of sandwich they're making at the moment? How ego-centric can you be?!" Now, I still know it all can be a fairly unhealthy, self-centered obsession for some. But this (Amber's blog & many of yours) has taught me to see what one always sees with a closer look, Christ is the Great Redeemer. He can even breath life into online social networking! I have seen great fruit come from this blog & others. Preface A completed, here, quickly is B: I share this not to point to me, or Amber. We're sinful people in need of daily correction, me especially. I share the story because I am pretty sure someone will benefit from it -this book can be a valuable tool.

For our the-boys-are napping reading time with Emelia today I read, "Aslan's Triumph." It's a nicely summarized version of C.S. Lewis' "The Lion, the Witch & the Wardrobe" from the Narnia series. The illustrations are well made & thoughtfully put together. As we read it I kept telling Emelia that the story was made to tell us about Jesus.

When we got to the end, she still seemed very focused on it so I went back to the 1st page & asked, "What does this picture teach us about Jesus?" Then, we talked about it. This went on all the way through the book! Granted, it's not a huge book. But we had good talks that went on for a while on most of the pages. I asked a few times if she wanted to keep going but she was still interested. Some times she missed the concept entirely but was eager to learn. Other times her understanding of the picture surprised me.

We covered temptation, identity & purpose, sin & its penalty, Satan ("The Accuser"), angels & demons, Christ's intentional & brave sacrifice of Himself, His resurrection, His victory over death, the exhilarating joy of following Him, Christ's victory over the battle, how all of His followers survive in the end, heaven, and becoming the people He made us to be.

...hardly a typical afternoon talk with my 4 year old. (I hope I can say otherwise in the months to come!) I got to sit for half an hour and share the Gospel with my daughter! As my friend Josh would say, it was beautiful. It was.

At the end of the story my little blond girl & I talked about the little blond girl who revives her brother with the gift from Aslan (the gift of healing). "Did you know" I asked Emelia picking her up onto my lap to face me, "that YOU have gifts too? Jesus has given you gifts!" She was so intrigued & locked eyes with me in the way I think every father longs for his beloved children to do. She was mine, eagerly awaiting the good news (the Good News!) I had for her, delighted, trusting & focused. I knew right away that whatever I said next would stick.

So, naturally, I lost it.

I am glad to report that I didn't go snotty-nosed-hyperventilating-high-pitched-voice on her. But cry I did. It seems children's books are what put Amber & me over the edge these days.

I got to tell her about the gifts I see in her. I got to fill her with wonder at the gifts she has -ones that we don't even know about yet. And, I got another opportunity to point my girl to Jesus. I am so filled right now it's silly.

My latest highlight of the year involves crying over a kids book and I'm blogging about it.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Becoming my Mother


Growing up I was always shocked and embarrassed by my mothers ability to cry about anything. Movies, books, stories, sitcoms, Oprah, etc. I just didn't get it.

Today I realized I was becoming my Mother. Emelia and I sat down for our afternoon reading session. The book for today was Meet Addy (American Girl series).

The story is about a 9 year old slave girl who escapes to freedom. I started reading the first chapter aloud to Emelia and made it only a few chapters before I was crying. It was pretty intense and probably a bit inappropriate for a 4 year old. She was however hooked and wanted more. (This is probably where I make the point that in the future I will try to read the books first). I ended up reading the 70 pages story to her over about an hour. She loved it and had many questions. I however struggled to read without sobbing. 2 parts in particular really hit me. First was where the father and brother were sold to another slave owner. Second was where the mother left her baby behind so she could escape with the 9 year old. These are issues I will never face. No one in my family has and probably never will. As I was reading I couldn't help but to picture Levi.

When I had learned about slavery in the past it was always distant from my life. I felt compassion and sadness but not real understanding. Today I experienced it differently. I pictured my son working on the plantation, being beaten by his slave owner and sold as property. I realized for the first time that all the men and women who risked their lives for freedom from slavery...that they did it not only for themselves but they also did it for Levi. He is able, because of those who fought slavery, to come to America and live a life of endless opportunity.

I have a african son. over 100 years ago if he came to America it would have been on a slave ship. Now he comes as my beloved son, a equal portion of my heart, a equal heir.

See, I have become my Mother. Crying and blogging about an American Girl story book.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Fall kids

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Question?

143 million orphans worldwide..................

James 1:27
" Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world"

Couldn't be more clear.

So what do we do with this information? Is this just for the rich guy over there with lots of time, space and energy? Is this only for the perfect families? Is this only for families with infertility?

So if there are 2.1 billion Christians worldwide why do we still have 143 million orphans?

What is God calling you to do?

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Big Eyes! Big personality! Big plans!


Usually I post pictures that are all cute and happy. This is somewhat misleading. This weekend I am going to post some pictures of the "real" Levi. He is a 9 month with a plan. Usually I have no idea what this is. For example today he screamed at me for 20 mins because he didn't want to sit or be held. He wanted me to hold his hands to stand. Well I had to make dinner so he had to pick a reasonable option. This was not part of his plan. He screamed so hard and long that my other kids went and hid in the back bedrooms to get away from him.

I haven't really been talking to many people about how tough of a baby he is. I feel like they will think it is because of attachment issues or that they will judge my adoptive parenting abilities. I wonder these same things I guess. But I am reminded all the time of my first born. She was exactly the same way. Every night until she was about 2 we had to hold her down screaming and kicking to put her pajamas on. She hated to sleep and was grumpy A LOT! Now she is a wonderful, sweet calm child. I have my hopes for Levi as well. But for now it is TOUGH!

My middle child was kind of like a cabbage patch doll until he was 18 months. I would put him down on the floor and do "things". He would just sit there until I came to get him. Very calm, very self entertained, easy and loves to sleep. I guess the moral of my story is that children have very different personalities. I shouldn't take it personally that Levi is a discontent little guy.

Look out! the real Levi in picture is coming!