Thursday, May 28, 2009

Update and hands held up

Update: We received another update from Julie today. Basically more of the same. The Government orphanage, where he was relinquished, has been unable to locate "D's" birth mom. I didn't realize this was there responsibility. I really don't know how one finds a woman in a 3rd world country, without a job, cell phone, email address etc. She supposedly lives 7 hours from Addis Ababa. Has anyone driven to her "address" to find her? Has anyone contacted her family? I have many questions with very few answers. I do know that our agency is going to start looking for her as well. Also Almaz, the director of Hannah's Hope is going to be contacting the courts to figure out what to do next. REALLY....has this not happened before? Apparently not. I thought it would be common. It's not looking hopeful in an human sense but I am holding on to a thin strand of hope that God will work it out. 

Hands Held Up:
My Mother-in-law (I prefer to call her my Mother-in-grace, the most amazing, godly, wise woman I have even met. I am blessed to call her mom) reminded me of a Moses story today.  After Moses leads the people out of Egypt they end up in battle with Amalek (Exodus 17). Moses sends Joshua and an army out to fight. Moses, Aaron and Hur went to the top of a hill. " Whenever Moses held up his hand, Israel prevailed and whenever he lowered his hand, Amalek prevailed. But Moses' hands grew weary, so they took a stone and put it under him, and he sat on it, while Aaron and Hur held up his hands, one on one side, and the other on the other side. So his hands were steady until the going down of the sun. And Joshua overwhelmed Amalek and his people with the sword." (verses 11-13).
This story reminded me of a few things. First, this is a battle. This is a battle over Levi's life. The events in the next few weeks to months will greatly change his life. Secondly, I wanted to thank all you for your prayers and support. For providing a rock for Andrew and I to sit on and for holding up our arms to the Lord. I, especially, am tired and weary. I struggle daily with my ability to trust that God is soverign. I am so greatful for so many amazing people to come along side us to fight this battle. I can't express this enough. Thank you for holding me up.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Since I don't really have interesting news, I thought I would share some recent photos. 

Emelia and her friend Maddie

Focused Children

You know you are big for your age when...there's no where to slide

Emelia's soccer/ interpretive dance

update

We received an update today from our case worker. Basically nothing new. She still cannot be located. They have no answers as to what happens next. Feeling so lost and disappointed.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

I have felt overwhelmingly loved the past few days. I just wanted to thank everyone for their prayers and kind words. It is comforting to know we are not alone in this struggle. 

Overall, I am doing better. Not sobbing every few minutes. It still breaks my heart to walk by Levi's nursery....see his crib, clothes, etc. (TMI to follow) I have breastmilk and no baby. I have been on a protocol to lactate and have milk already. :( but no baby. My daughter made a paper chain to count down our court days. She is confused why all the chains are gone and Levi is still not ours. Hard to explain to a 3 year old. 

Really this could all be over next week and I will think, "geez Amber what was all the fuss". Or it could go on for months. We might even not make it before courts close in August and September. I do believe that God called us to adopt. I do not understand his plan or how He is going to work it all out. For now, I am trying to make the choice moment by moment to trust. 

"Fear not, for I am with you;
I will bring your offspring from the east,
and from the west I will gather you.
I will say to the north, Give up,
and to the south, Do not withhold;
bring my sons from afar
and my daughters form the end of the earth,
everyone who is called by my name,
whom I created for my glory,
whom I formed and made."  -Isaiah 43:5-7

  

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Did not pass

I just wanted to quickly let everyone know we did not pass court last night, as expected. I am sure everyone has a lot of questions...so do we. Here is what we know.

No one can find his mother.
We do not have another court date.
We have no timeline of how long this could take.

Please pray that she would be found.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

(Beyond) Disappointing call

Our case worker from AGCI called this morning to let us know they have been unable to find Levi's birth mom. In order for us to pass court in a few hours, she has to be there. The call was basically to let us know we will most likely not pass. I feel a bit confused as to what will happen next, other than a new court date. I feel so sad, confused, frustrated, hopeful yet scared. I am scared of how long this could drag on. I am sad for Levi having to spend any more time in an orphanage. 
Please pray for us. Pray for a miracle...that we would actually pass court. Pray also we would firmly believe that God loves this little boy and is ultimately in control. 

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Court just one day away! Wednesday night

This week is a big week for AGCI adoption folks. Tonight and tomorrow night there are several families with court dates. Ours is tomorrow night (the 20th here, the 21st in Ethiopia). For all you non adoption folks: we do not go to court. We have a representative, Almaz, who is also the director of Hannah's Hope. Court will take place as we are hopefully sleeping or staring at the ceiling of our bedroom. We will not know the results until a day or so later. This wait will be excruciating. Knowing a decision has been made, just not knowing what it is. Once the court decree has been made we will get travel dates. This is usually 2-4 weeks later. 
Please join us in praying that we would pass court and that Levi would be officially ours. Please also pray that his birth mom would show up. It is necessary for us to pass court. 


Thursday, May 14, 2009

Nesting Fool!

So I thought Nesting was hormonal...something that really only happened at the end of pregnancy. Well, I was wrong. I am a crazy nesting fool! I have been working room to room DEEP CLEANING. Today I got down hands and knees to clean my kitchen floor. Earlier this week we put Levi's crib together. I promptly went to Babies R Us to get bedding. It's, of coarse, washed and on the bed. I also pulled all the furniture out from our bedroom to vacuum and clean. 
Since I have been deep cleaning my house I have also been deep cleaning my heart. The past few days (and hopefully will continue) I have been giving time to just Listen to my Jesus. It is easy to get in the habit of spending all our time together with me talking, praying and asking. Or simply reading without really opening my heart to what Jesus has for me. Well, in the midst of my frenzied activity I am trying to listen. To let the spirit enter my heart and truly change it. I have a lot of preparing to do for baby number 3. May Jesus enter my heart and deep clean areas to prepare me for my challenges ahead. 

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Nesting

We are 2 weeks away from our court date! In the mean time I am busy nesting

I bought diapers, wipes and formula today. 
Bought and sterilized bottles. I bought a few tempo bottles for the trip and plan on using Born Free bottles once we are home. 
Got all the 3-6 month boy clothes down from the attic and washed them. 
Washed the car seat cover and its ready to out in the car.

Now all I need is the call saying we passed court.