We are adopting again! ........
Saturday, April 3, 2010
There has been a bit of purposeful silence on my part. I felt a few months ago that God really wanted me to be still and wait for him. I was suppose to be patient and listen. Then the waiting went to wrestling. After a period of intense emotional and spiritual battle I am experiencing joy and faith.
Waiting in so interesting. One day I looked up all the verses in the bible that referenced waiting on God. There were quite a few. The consistent theme was that there was joy in waiting on God. I HATE waiting. I am a do-er kind of person. I make a plan and then I execute the plan in the shortest time possible. At first I was annoyed. I wanted so badly to know, "are we or aren't we". I just wanted to know either way if God wanted us to start our next adoption. (side note:We were approved by immigration USCIS for 2 children. We adopted Levi and technically we are still able to adopt another. We are allowed one free extension until 12/2011, one free country change and one free fingerprinting. So we had to decide whether or not to use this or to let it lapse.) But day after day of calling out to God, listening and waiting I can say with confirmation that I am closer to God now than a few months ago. If that is my main priority in life, to be close to God, I should be ok with the waiting. "Work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his God pleasure. "-Phil 2:12.
As for Andrew (I always hate to speak for him in case I misrepresent) but he is on this same journey. He has said many times to me the past few weeks..."the word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path."- Psalm 119:105. He has been on my knees before the Lord, deep in scripture, waiting to be confirmed. In the past I might have stated particular information to try to sway Andrew's opinion. yes I can be persuasive. I have been so conscious not to do this. I want Andrew to receive confirmation from Lord because he is the head of our home. Ultimately he is responsible for what happens with our children and our finances. He has to be 100% sure that God has called us to Naomi right now. I don't want to be home with 4 kids and a bitter husband who felt I pushed him into it. I am totally content to wait. Like I said... waiting is the theme right now. Waiting on God. Waiting on my husband. "Fear not, Daniel (Andrew), for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and humbled yourself before your God your words have been heard, and I have come because of your words." -Daniel 10:12 (Andrew shared this verse with me yesterday that he felt God had given to him.)
We set a date for Easter to make a decision regarding whether to move forward to wait. That would be tomorrow. SO stay tuned for more info.
On other news, we received our FBI clearance yesterday. It was taking people about 12 weeks to get them but somehow ours came in 8 weeks.