We were officially approved to work with Beacon House on thursday. It was bitter sweet news. The way adoptions work in
The news of our acceptance into the Beacon House program also had a statement regarding thepossibility of Social Welfare (within the Ghanaian government) denying us based on our family makeup. Especially the fact that our children are all young and that we have requested a young child (0-4yr). So given this info we have a few choices. We can move forward, completing our dossier, sending it to
When I read this info my heart sunk. There is such a big part of me that wants this to be "easy". As if easy means God is behind it. Maybe it is just pride....that if
www.onethankfulmom.com (She links to a John Piper Sermon- What does it mean to live by faith in service to the Fatherless.)
I was also reminded that every adoption is difficult. Domestic, foster, international. All have the good, bad and ugly sided. Sometimes I feel that it is a full on spiritual World War 3. Then I have to remind myself that our journey to our daughter is about God placing an orphan within our family. It isn't about getting what we want, when we want, how we want. Everything about my flesh wants it the WAY I WANT IT!! I fight this everyday. Tonight as I sit in eager anticipation/hopelessness all in one, I repeat over and over "Not my will but yours. Not my will but yours. Not my will but yours.